They Bounced!
BE STILL AND KNOW
Have you ever felt abandoned by those closest to you?
That heart wrenching, stomach punch, mind blowing feeling is simply devastating!
We did life together, I was there for your BIG days, SAD days, SCARY day, we promised to RIDE or DIE for each other. I mean we went through thick/thin, and it was supposed to be until the very end!
BUT THEN…
That “UNEXPECTED SOMETHING” came along and that just wasn’t part of the relationship plan. But wait if we are riding till the end, how could it not be a part of it? I mean it’s here, so obviously it’s a part of the journey. WE just didn’t see it coming; therefore, it wasn’t a part of our plan. So, let’s just call it a “Divine Input”, which can be and present in many ways far beyond our comprehension. For instance, quitting a wonderful job and serving in ministry, giving everything away and going where God leads you or even a devastating medical diagnosis!
At the very onset of the “Divine Input” in whatever form it comes, you will begin to see your circle of friends/family slowly disperse. As you are pulled deeper into the “Divine Input” people began to bounce so fast your head spins. You tell yourself that’s okay, our season is over, and they were just not supposed to be here.
BUT THEN…
Your Ride or Die’s and those closest to you begin to vanish, WAIT?! WAIT?! How could that be, NO, NO, NO, this is not RIGHT! Truly something has gone wrong! I am in a bad dream, no a horrible nightmare! Gotta wake up, let me pinch myself, OUCH! Okay, not sleep, I’m woke, woke, WOKE!
Oh this is painful am I dying, must be everybody’s leaving, wait, don’t go please don’t go! I am all alone. How did I get here? I was there for all of them. I gave my time, resources, love! I gave my LOVE and they all BOUNCED; at such a time as THIS! I am in this place all alone, just me and my thoughts. Father God what did I do to get in this painful, uncomfortable place? I think I am angry, no I’m really pissed off! Wait it’s getting darker and scarier the more angry I get.
I’m sorry Lord, Please forgive me! I will LOVE, I will LOVE, I WILL LOVE! Things began to get brighter, brighter, BRIGHTER… I see the light, LOVE allows me to shine. LOVE allows me to heal… Love allows me to feel comforted!
“I am with you; I will never leave you or forsake you…” Yes Lord, I hear you and I am not alone, you are here with me; you never left!
Okay, so let’s back up a second, even when I thought I was alone, I wasn’t. God was with me! Even when I thought no one returned all the LOVE I gave; God LOVED me unconditionally; even during the times I didn’t LOVE me!
YES, there is a happy ending and I rose up, kept going higher into my purpose. People were assigned and allowed to come back into my life. I now understand that if the time comes again when they all bounce… God is calling me into a space of one on one!
Just remember my friend when everyone BOUNCE; God is still RIGHT THERE WITH YOU!
~OneLove Diane
BEHOLD, I AM WITH YOU ALWAYS, EVEN TO THE END OF THE AGE AMEN. (MATTHEW 28;20)